Didn't know a broken heart could feel so good.

Well... i haven't updated in a long time. To update anyone paying atention. First off... the other day i spilled soda on my still new labtop (Yes... i got a new one.) luckly everything still works, but now half the keys stick and it makes typeing realy anoying. Second off... jackie broke up with her boyfriend two weeks after starting. I helped her get over him. She was about to get back together with him, but then he called it off and i helped her through that. tody though... i finaly grew some balls and asked her out for myself. She turned me down, but very politely. I still like her and she respects that. were still good friends and tommorow were headed downtown just as friends. Sure i'm angry that once again im stuck in the friend stage... but on the other side... i'm happy. I really happy that i finaly got the courage to tell someone that i like them.overall... it turned out how i expected. i'm just dealing with mixed emotions right now.

on the other note... college is a pain in the ass. The homework load is fucking rediculous. i have had project after project and i'm sick of working. I am so looking foreward to this weekend. Also... i unfortunately started playing WOW. i have already proven to myself that i'm not a ddicted so there is no worry about that. the longest setion i have played is 1 hour. i can't seem to sit still past that. I constanly leave the game cause i get bored with it. the only reason i continue to play is that pretty much the entire dorm plays so i still think its fun if i'm playing with them... other than that... i really don't see why the game is that great.

Life Rocks! Love sucks!

I love champlain... but i hate the fact that i fell in love again. Her name is jackie. She is one of my best friends up here , but also a source of constant emotional toruture. I really like her, and today she made her raltionship offical... with someone else. Now that she has a boyfirend, we have been closer firends than ever... that probably why i'm so down. I guess i'm just ranting so feel free to stop reading anytime.


Its proabably the most tourturus thing being with the one you like, but knowing your not actualy together. I'm just writeing to get her off my mind, it just seems like she always shows up in my thoughts. I hope this won't last long. I'm still gonna stay friends. What i hope for is to find someone i like more... and soon. i really hate that this hapens to me every time.

The Grind

So yeah... lately i have been paricipating in something called the Grind. Its a late night poetry, music and performance club. Its awesome... i absolutely love it. I have been reading three poems a night.

Its every wendsday night at 8:30.  This time a got some pics but next time i hope to get video. 

Saddness

Well, once again my friends have been calling me Emo. and not without just cause. I feel quite a bit down lately. I hate whenever something comes to an end. It really just brings my mood down. I feel the weight of tadma ending crushing me right now. What probably has me more depressed right now is that my lastest venture into the social world has once again failed. I rather liked her but unfortunately only lasted one date. My incompetnce is rather frustrating to me. I am totaly helpless when it comes to women. Unfortunately women only see me as a friend who they can confide in. nothing more. nothing less. They just don't get it how much it frustrates a guy when he knows he can never be more than a friend. I'm just slightly stressed between relationship failures and ending of tadma and finaly moving on to start my new life at Champlain.

On the lighter side of news. The staff magic cards are just about done. they look really good.

TADMA

Well its finally at a close. Unfortunately Tadma has completed week 6 and that means i'm off to college. I'm excited to attend Champlain but i'm also slightly nervous. I hope everything will turn out alright.

A small poem for the folks who care.

Ryhmed to Death

lying down across my bed
the words won't form inside my head
all those lyrics went unsaid
who cares, for now i am dead
lying down in that cold room
talking to darkness and to gloom.